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Hi HATER!



lol. Happy Holidays though =P

Face IT! ...FEAR

they say your past will haunt you...well I'm giving up my ghosts.

Confronted and Abolished . motto for the seasons

Happy Bornday to ME and my twin.....lol

Late night thoughts keep me up

I'am about had enough of all the senseless murder and acts of cruelty .. last week by my house someone died by a gun shot by new lots number 3 train station ..smh.many reasons to why but nothing believable(street gossip not reliable)...blocks from my house helicopters over my house and everything then I was on F.b. today looking @ my homegirl's status she put up and it reminded me of a fellow h.s. peer (nyasia pryear-yard) who died from a random act of violence ..gunned down ..uqhhh over what ..A simple night meant for fun turned to tragedy ..then I go on my favorite blogsite concreteloop.com and see a story of a child's mother who sold her into prostitution at the tender age of 5 (outrage!) then reported her missing only to find her dead a week later ..all I can say is WHY! why do we do this? what can be the reason to be so cruel? what can make you act so Unhuman and live with your conscious? we as people need to help one another grow . help one another better one another. each one teach one. my simple message is next time you want to do something in retaliation or out of hate or whatever state your in to think ..think about the hurt and pain you will cause ..think about all the negative your causing to this already malfunctioned society ..think what you are doing to yourself ..



R.I.P to the soul who loss their live ..





R.I.P. my fallen peer .. you had so much promise and it all was stolen..






R.I.P. little angel .your life was deff stole..

Leaving you with the words of Ms wynter Gorden -UNIFY

Poverty Is Where We Grow
Videos Are All We Know
Get A Bitch
Now Drive A Whip
And Turn A Trick
We Love Them Hoes
The Only Way To Make A Dollar
Selling Weed Up On The Corner
Killing Future Son And Daughters Lives
Violence And Drugs And Gangs
More Models In Magazines
Having Sex And Pregnant Teens
Its What We Do, It Aint No Thing
Thought to Spend Our Money Fast
Should Be Making Money Last
Instead We Spend It On Chinese Food And The Lastest Trends

These Are
The Struggles That We Face
They Ain't Gon' Go Away
Until We Make A Change, So Far
We Haven't Done A Thing
But Sit Back And Complain, And Let
People Tell Us Who We Are

If We Wanna Make It Right
Come Together, Unify
Wanna Make A Better Life
Let Me Hear My People Cry

All Those Who Succeed
Need To Help The Others
No Man Left Behind
In Spirit He's Your Brother
You Are Not Alone
If We Stick Together
Sun Or Stormy Weather
Keep Your Head Up

Sh'es such a Darling ...Introducing Dionne Bromfield

I love love love the motown era ..and her sound is just that. she has such a mature but sincere voice.. ahhhh sh'es deff refreshing ..and F.Y.I can you believe sh'e is only THIRTEEN and Amy winehouse's goddaughter! ahhhhh-MAZING ..I can not wait to pick up her album.. it will deff make my collection.

Am so0oLMJ and I support this music talent!

Walking thru the corridors of my mind...

Once again I go back on my word ...I've been very social ..lol oo0ps ..don't judge me though I'am only human =) .after a very eventful/interesting weekend I started my MONDAY with a KICK. woke up went for a walk with the dog ..ate some breakfast .and pretty much read , blog, talked all day..I know sounds type boring lol but things will progress when I actually start this Job . I can't wait to see and hear the little joy that are the kids I'll be working with (half confused face on) hmmm.. maybe I'll take that back when I actually see their behavior..lol . we'll see. ohh and my girlie came through also to catch up (get her hair did). ..I swear I should start my own business @ home ..make a couple of bucks hmm good suggestion lise But seriously is it me or am I tripping because every time I walk outside my house I see some type of coonery smfh ..I take a junk food run to pick up some goodies and while am walking I see the ridiculousness that is grown men between the ages of 21-30 playing video games outside of a house full with speakers , telly , and chairs.. WTF who does that ? outside is not EXACTLY summer weather. I just can't help but wonder where does the common sense come in . don't get me wrong I love me some Halo or 2k9 but this is a whole notha extreme. any who amma just sit back pray for those fools and worry about my pending loan in process . pray for me guys ..

Do take it personally!

(Rabbing) .. but My POINT is there...

JO bro and Demii . .. I think I pee'd my pants.. My laugh for the week. ..

Happy Borndayyyy Sannnnnn Tanaaaa AYEE!..lol

Sh'es the greatest Dominican I know.. I love this girl dearly ..sh'es there when i need her and then some ..so0o to you on your day have a great and bless birfhday you deserve it love.. B squared D squared yupp yupp lol

P.S. You finally joined the 20 club..youngin lol

/laˈruː/ MUCH?

so0o I've been thinking of a major change ... I just haven't decided what? naturalle? weaving? not sure.. but I think I wanna go Xtreme with a Red =) not fire hydrate but a spicy red and brown tints.. hmmm I think I just might

De- ACTIVATE!

So0o I have decided to clear myself of all these unpure distractions known as social networking...This comes after I got Bad news with Schooling and loan business that I wasn't on top off.. causing a huge ruckus in my household leaving no one to blame but myself ... so0o with this being said ..until I get properly on track I will stay socially blocked until further notice =/

Happy BORNDAY to my Closey RASHIDA!!!!

1/4 of D squared B squared ...1/3 of the trio this girl is awesome.. we are so0o gunna live it up for your day dude!!

p.s Don't be tardy for the PARRRRRRRRTAHHHHHHH!

Inspiration

“I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it
seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that
you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things:
a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that
regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're
gone from your life. I've learned that making a living is not the same thing as
making a life. I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.
I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both
hands; you need to be able to throw some things back. I've learned that whenever
I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've
learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that
every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or
just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.
I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you
did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

Maya Angelou

Caribbean flavor meets them co0l Canucks : MEET Anjulie

simply blend of Pop mixed with Indie... Sh'e has a 60's swagg with a modern twist.. DOPENESS indeed..

am so0olmj and I support this musical talent!

Understand

"Run your fingers through my soul. For once, just once, feel exactly what I feel, believe what I believe, perceive as I perceive, look, experience, examine, and for once; just once, understand. "...

Late night glory!

tehehe this is so0o incredibly random but what the hell .. am feeling good.. although I should be shleeping now ..I just can't ..my body and mind is fulled with excitement ..lol.. jammin to miley cyrus with my p.j.s rocking out ..good ish people .. hmmm looking @ the craziness that was this labor day weekend and I must say for some kinda dry parties and unwelcoming surprises my weekend was pretty dope.. looking around in my room you can tell the madness ..ughh I need to clean a.s.a.p .. maybe later this morning I'll call up a friend to do breakfast @ piggy's ah thats my spot ...hmm yeah just might..but for now let me try to chill out & mellow cause at this rate i'll break day...maybe a walk will do it......or maybe not( sus people out at this time) tea will do it..lol

Confusion!!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I scream in silence.. too much pressure to even comprehend. my priorities got into a scramble...B L A H!. honestly it would be just easier to just escape but you never learn that way. consulting in my closest friends and their all telling me the same thing over and over...ughhhh I wish sometimes that things were easier done then said. I hate the feeling of backtracking , been put in the same position I was in months ago.. especially when I felt I handled it best then. maybe I need to take a deep and thorough look at it and find my solution .. tough but i'll work it out ..I refuse to let em see me sweat..

Sexyy centaurs ..Madd tude... & Great vocals

Introduction VV Brown!

Am so0oLMJ and I support this music talent!

Big kid I am... lol Disney MOVIESSS!!

Sh'e is so0o divine.. I swear she reminds me of myself when I was younger..lol not that long ago but still ... spunky . preppy ..and wise LOVE it!

Since I've been gone...

Hiatus much? tisk tisk... so0o much has happened while I was away ..staring in the clouds of life..hmmm where do I begiin.. (contemplating leaving you guys in a cliff hanger =D) ... well let me sum it up ..make this brief..lol no post.. old past..deaths =x... fresh cuts.. lame phone ..missed caribana =(.. soca village.. PRIORITY CHECK!.. & a little more randomness but neither the less in the day of ME..

Lately....

hmmm.. I know it seems like ii haven't post since ages.. but honestly to tell you the truth I haven't had to eage to. I been caught upp in jury duty .. job hunting (its a job ..looking for a job..sighss) and trying to keep my emotions and nerves at ease..which sometimes is hard to do when there is plenty of negative energy lurking. BUT staying positive is what I am about. I need not overwhelm myself with the B.S. I have so0o many things that need to be prioritied and ready ..

reading along some articles I came across a verse from the bible ...that tameka raymond tweeted( I so0o will not conform...lol) ..the quote in a sensed reminded me to stay grounded. YEAH sometimes you may let the little and big issues get to you ..but at the end of the day ..will you let that drive you over the edge or would you rather keep your sanity?

People with good sense restrain their anger; they earn esteem by overlooking wrongs. ~Proverbs 19:11

Nu tat!...

GYE NYAME
"except for God"
symbol of the supremacy of God

Its FRESH...so0o never mind the swelling...lol . but I absolutely love IT. it symbolizes my faith and how strong it gets. basically a reminder that throughout it all god comes first. its origin starts from africa , ghana to be exact. a adinkra symbol used to decorate and reflect the deeply religious characters of the ghanian people.

for more info if your interested in adinkra symbols http://www.adinkra.org/htmls/adinkra_index.htm
and
http://www.calltoactionquilt.org/africansymbols.html

enjoy!

School is OVAH!....summer has OFFICIAL BEGUN!

sorry about the hiatus..I had to buckle down..to much work to do and finals BUT no MORE...YES..YESS..YES...N YESS..lol I 'am DONE! super stoked that school has come to an end. no more teachers, no more TEST ...grrr.. no more nothing.. now on to finding that perfect J O B.. ugh what an hassle but hey am still happy ..lol.. Good luck to all my fellow students still in school though.. get them A's ...I'll be thinking of you when I'am on the beach ..lol.. j/k ..always love

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter to you and yours on this special day. honor the man above for all his sacrifices and try to live as righteous as possible. While I get to finally enjoy the sweet taste of juice..(gave it up for lent) I take a glass of rum punch instead...lol.. yeah yeah I know it's not the best thing but its in moderation!.... well BACk to my family and dearest friends ..enjoy every1!

Confession of a Woman!

& you went from an "acquaintance" to a "nothing".. Forgiven and forgotten..

i d k if it's me but it has become very easy to forgive the wrong done to me and FORGET the person ..like I lost my memory..

I mean its just how I deal with the situaton. I rather not be petty or angry when the next person will sit there and live their happy , normal life while I sit there upset and frustrated! so0o not me ...it honestly takes way to much out of me to BE mad and stay mad at someone. I rather be my HAPPY self and live my life.

can U agree?

& I thought I wouldn't go here but I did....hmmm

so0o its about five 33 and I just got in... I sitting in my room with my mocha iced coffee and laptop in hand ..feeding my addiction lol..had to go through my fav blog list because I deprived myself..lol ..when I stop I actually thought something crazyy...a RELATIONSHIP? ...I've had a minor thing for someone for a while now and I really can't seem to shake the feeling..I mean I am a strong advocate for the single and mingling commitee (no not condoning recklessness just sheer clean FUN..LOL). I mean I like variety an assortment even..lol.. but really though Why did that out of all things cross my mind.. hmmm still pondering this ..jogging my words even ..man .. but looking at the circumstances who knows what can turn out of that..I mean am not the chasing type nor am I the type to just put my feelings out there..YES I HAVE A PRIDE PROBLEM!in some ways I wish I was bold enough ..just to go up to him confess everyting, grab his face passionately and kiss him like it was my last breathe but who am I kidding ..that will never happen..hmmm ..so0o were does it go from here?

smh! can WE SAY wack! smh..overrated much!

so0o my girls and I went to island rock in long island...let me just say the video says it ALL! NEVER AGAIN...

Not the best DAY!

ughh Not your usual happy camper..n ohh great its raining outside ..just perfect ..smh. where do I even begin.. Iam really just out of it ..pplain n simple. there seems to be pressure coming from every which direction. I don't want to do this work but I have 2 do this right but that won't be good..ugh my head is spinning. I just had a conversation with my mother whom yes cares about me alot but also makes me out to be something I am not sometimes..like for real who says "Your spending habits will lead you like the typical African American in the projects" smh.. like that is so stereotypical and not in my character anyhow.. I mean have you no faith ? Iam your child ..I will admit sometimes i get out of hand but for the most part I am learning.. I guess I'm the only one to see my change of habits but you just see Old me! smh... on my sidekick(which I hate) my status says "I'm the type of girl who hates to ask for things ..esp. when u throw it back in my face ... when u make me feel little...u see little of me n hear less from me... I swear its almost becoming to easy to CLOSE the door!". simply applying this I will either accept help or not but don't throw me under the bus with your bashing. I just feel like you need to see me truly for who I am and not what the past made of me..I d K if you get the logic of that statement but hopefully you get the gist. hmmm.. its almost time to go to my class ..hopefully I don't end the day with an unsure frown.

YES! spring break! 2 bad am in the states :(

Well I must say it's been a while since i've written a post ..I've been busy wif school work and other randomness.. but anywho I feel so0o accomplished .Y E S. deff went to the studio wif my best bud nish aka tweety aka ms. wavyness .smh ..honestly she has way to many nicknames..lol .we recorded some poems for her album wif s.n.a.p.s. (students networking to advocate a poetic society). puree dopeness... look out for that esp. because my blog gets a special shout-out. YIPPIE..lol . can WE say grindingg..lol ..moving right along this week should be pleasent . plan to do some thrift shopping ..hang wiff a couple of old friends..DO some parties n chill wif family..DARN I really wish I could have went 2 mexico or fiji or somewhere exotic ..maybe get a tan and find a hAWT man..lol j/k ..but I wouldve loved it though..ill just make most of this vaca..hey I may never know what's in store for me!

ThE 1st!

Happy March Ist!

Happy Valentines Day!

Happy Vday everyone...enjoy your significant other and for all my anti heads be happy that u have ur health and your surrounded by people who love u...yes am always THIS positive! ..lol

Lady gaga -Poker Face on repeat <3<3

signed the P E A C E M A K E R

&& Sh'es Drifted far n Beyond!

Can U Phil it! oohh man ..it's like am drowning in music..you ever had one of those days when you just sit and pull up your favorite playlist and zone OUT! lol ..this is ME mostly everyday it calms the soul...so besides that I've been productive ..veryy verry bussyy ..buzz buzz..lol. now that I have this seven day weekend I don't know what to do! hmmm VALENTINES day is tomorrow ..hmm .. I deff just might go 2 the city in the morning shop with the girls, do a movie and get eats ..I really want to get my hands on the free Yves Saint Laurent tote and heart shaped USB Key.UGH! what really kinda sucks about this is that they won't disclose the location to where there giving them. smh..I will still be there looking out no matter what.. keeping real cool for this one. partying on sunday? I D K. its really all up in the air. I most likely do bunch with my mommy and go see my sweeties(nieces and nephews) .yeahh that seems IT!

TGIT! .

Thank GOD its THUSRDAY! lol! yes I have a FIVE day weekend ..isn't that lovely...yeah I know lol ...ummm it was an OK week..the highlight of my week was I AM AFRICAN program it was absolutely genius ..way 2 go 2 L.A.W.S. , NAACP, and Delta Sigma Theta Sorority Incorporated you guys did a great job. I can not wait till C.W. post debate team kicks off in full gear.. I am just anticipating GREATNESS. Now alls left to wonder is whats my plans for this evening.. I got a couple of suggestions for some fetes n tings but Idk! soo random.. my cousin just called me...eckks SUPER stoked ..I haven't spoke to her in sooo longg its outragious..lol but back on track.. I am trying to stay up with my spiritual life and my working out..but the distractions are endless ..you know? ughhh! I just need to stay focus and wise if I am to be successful this semester..

&& I didn't forget about my feature for black history month ...I decided on MISS Michelle LaVaughn Robinson Obama . To me she is such an inspiration , an innovator , and overall graceful soul.

(born January 17, 1964) is the current First Lady of the United States, and the wife of the forty-fourth President of the United States Barack Obama. She is the first African American First Lady.
She was born and grew up on the South Side of Chicago and graduated from Princeton University and Harvard Law School. After completing her formal education, she returned to Chicago and accepted a position with the law firm Sidley Austin, and subsequently worked as part of the staff of Chicago mayor Richard M. Daley, and for the University of Chicago Medical Center.

credits to wikipedia.

Uhh this F'd up weather.. killing my joy MUCH!

& I can not stress enough how much I HATE snow... its disgustingg BLAH! not your usual happy camper.. walking to class in this weather is like hell on earth.. thankfully I was done at 2pm. only 2 return from classes to hear evening classes were CANCELLED ..PISH POSH I say..then you have the "lovely" dormitory neighbors making HELLA noise when you trying to catch some shut eye.. I didnt even bother myself to sleep ..it would've only lead to more disappointment.. smh.. I wish it was in my character sometimes to go to their doors , grab them by the ears and scream HEY SHUT THE (BLEEP) UP!.. so I lay in bed tired.. dreary and ANNOYED! hopefully with the following days it holds some promise. I really am starting to miss the comfort of my home in BROOKLYN! E.N.Y to be exact. I mean my mom has her moments of pushing me over the edge but I grew to understand its her DRIVE for me to be BEST and not play second to no one. and just when I thought I would have a sentimental moment my NEIGHBORS interrupt my thoughts with high pitch screaming..all the more reason to bring myself back home and just commute to school. hopefully after this little episode that am going through subsides I can continue with the agenda I had for today :(

Super Bowl XLIII!

So if you didn't already know the STEELERS WON! Pittsburgh Steelers 27 Arizona Cardinals 23
to be honest I didn't watch the game..I just saw all the highlights...but I knew all ..the moment they won because of all the commotion C.W. POST made ..ughhh talk about craziness the hall was NUTS!.. lol but it was in all good fun!...but my biggest and greatest pleasure was to see Miss Jennifer Hudson sing the national anthem! she absolutely killed it! Thanks again Antonia! she's up there with the performances of whitney and beyonce..

Black History Month...Honor the beauty of our race!

A great month indeed ..February! ..honestly you should honor those who paved the way for you and I every month ...but hey ..anywho I'd like to at least every day of the month have a spotlight on someone influential in my life and in society today! ..and if it hasn't dawned you yet we have our FIRST AFRICAN AMERICAN PRESIDENT ..Barack Hussein Obama! just in time for this historic month ..our ancestors are rejoicing..

Some random thoughts!

Trying to figure out if another tattoo or piercing is REALLY what I need? I mean I'am not ink crazy or nothing but am very much into different cultures and languages ..if you ever seen my aways via aim there either in Italian, French, or something else. still I haven't mustered the energy to actually get another..maybe the man ABOVE ..is telling me something.. I mean I asked a couple of friends ..some are for it ..some however say ENOUGH! .. at the end of the day it's MY decision and I wanna make the right one.. ooohh how could I forget the piercing ..this is NOT debatable.. its a surface piercing .I know sounds crazy but its cool ..real real fresh .. my inspiration who I will not disclose , hers is awesome.. and by the way a fit girl..u know who you are.. but seriously WHAT 2 DO?

Here's some ideas that came to my head..

the first two are in sanskrit _An ancient Indic language that is the language of Hinduism and the Vedas and is the classical literary language of India.
I know ..it my seem "overdoing it" but I do my research and educate myself before I do something drastic! tattoos to me must have meaning!
PASSION = तीव्रासक्ति WISDOM =प्रज्ञा COURAGE = धैर्य LOVE = प्रेम SELF-DISCIPLINE = स्वानुशासन

Do not go where the path may lead,go instead where there is no pathand leave a trail=मार्गानुक्रमेण मा गच्छ,अमार्गप्रदेशं गच्छपदचिह्नानि निक्षिप च

the last but not least is in hebrew.. I would love to travel to israel and learn about their rich culture and go on a spirtual quest .

pride goes before a fall
הגאווה הולך בפני נפילה

&& trust each and everyone of these tattoos have a significant meaning and purpose to my life!

Ummm it's a START!

So I felt enlighted ...and I said hey why not start a blog..but I didn't want it to be the typical blogspot and I wanted it to be cultured and diverse. so HERE it is ...So0oLmJ! hopefully you take something out of this just as I do..because it's my baby ..its growing everyday! lol