& I thought I wouldn't go here but I did....hmmm

so0o its about five 33 and I just got in... I sitting in my room with my mocha iced coffee and laptop in hand ..feeding my addiction lol..had to go through my fav blog list because I deprived myself..lol ..when I stop I actually thought something crazyy...a RELATIONSHIP? ...I've had a minor thing for someone for a while now and I really can't seem to shake the feeling..I mean I am a strong advocate for the single and mingling commitee (no not condoning recklessness just sheer clean FUN..LOL). I mean I like variety an assortment even..lol.. but really though Why did that out of all things cross my mind.. hmmm still pondering this ..jogging my words even ..man .. but looking at the circumstances who knows what can turn out of that..I mean am not the chasing type nor am I the type to just put my feelings out there..YES I HAVE A PRIDE PROBLEM!in some ways I wish I was bold enough ..just to go up to him confess everyting, grab his face passionately and kiss him like it was my last breathe but who am I kidding ..that will never happen..hmmm ..so0o were does it go from here?

smh! can WE SAY wack! smh..overrated much!

so0o my girls and I went to island rock in long island...let me just say the video says it ALL! NEVER AGAIN...

Not the best DAY!

ughh Not your usual happy camper..n ohh great its raining outside ..just perfect ..smh. where do I even begin.. Iam really just out of it ..pplain n simple. there seems to be pressure coming from every which direction. I don't want to do this work but I have 2 do this right but that won't be good..ugh my head is spinning. I just had a conversation with my mother whom yes cares about me alot but also makes me out to be something I am not sometimes..like for real who says "Your spending habits will lead you like the typical African American in the projects" smh.. like that is so stereotypical and not in my character anyhow.. I mean have you no faith ? Iam your child ..I will admit sometimes i get out of hand but for the most part I am learning.. I guess I'm the only one to see my change of habits but you just see Old me! smh... on my sidekick(which I hate) my status says "I'm the type of girl who hates to ask for things ..esp. when u throw it back in my face ... when u make me feel little...u see little of me n hear less from me... I swear its almost becoming to easy to CLOSE the door!". simply applying this I will either accept help or not but don't throw me under the bus with your bashing. I just feel like you need to see me truly for who I am and not what the past made of me..I d K if you get the logic of that statement but hopefully you get the gist. hmmm.. its almost time to go to my class ..hopefully I don't end the day with an unsure frown.

YES! spring break! 2 bad am in the states :(

Well I must say it's been a while since i've written a post ..I've been busy wif school work and other randomness.. but anywho I feel so0o accomplished .Y E S. deff went to the studio wif my best bud nish aka tweety aka ms. wavyness .smh ..honestly she has way to many nicknames..lol .we recorded some poems for her album wif s.n.a.p.s. (students networking to advocate a poetic society). puree dopeness... look out for that esp. because my blog gets a special shout-out. YIPPIE..lol . can WE say grindingg..lol ..moving right along this week should be pleasent . plan to do some thrift shopping ..hang wiff a couple of old friends..DO some parties n chill wif family..DARN I really wish I could have went 2 mexico or fiji or somewhere exotic ..maybe get a tan and find a hAWT man..lol j/k ..but I wouldve loved it though..ill just make most of this vaca..hey I may never know what's in store for me!

ThE 1st!

Happy March Ist!